After SPM 4 : Choosing other option

So now I am so sure that I did not get PSD offer , my dream to Australia had broken.

Meanwhile I still do not give up , because I always believe there is hope behind every event.

And I also believe that my religion belief aids me in making decision , and every decision I made should be appropriate. Well I really agree with it.

Honestly speaking , due to financial problem , surely I would prefer those study options with minimal costs or surely wished to be sponsored.haha.

So my 3 options are :

1.PSD foreign university scholarship which being everyone's favourite.

2.It would be local MOE matriculation which narrow down ur duration of study

3.Lastly would be STPM , which most SPM leavers do not favor it.

While my 1st option had been failed , then the remaining will be 2nd and 3rd only............

Of course I did applied local MOE matriculation during end of my Form 5 time , since it is the pre-requisite to obtain a seat.

But once again.....................

When I checked my matriculation application result via Internet , the monitor displayed:

"Dukacitanya dimaklumkan bahawa permohonan anda tidak berjaya"

Oh my gosh...........................

Alright, initially I felt so sad , but I was forgotten to mention that I mixed with some STPM leavers very frequently during my holiday when I worked at supermarket as cashier. So undeniably they had instilled me with benefits of STPM.

I was so fascinated after being nurtured by them , thinking that: STPM is so challenging man.Sounds great. Perhaps I should give a try........

May 2007, I claimed my Form 6 offer letter at my old school as all eligible SPM leavers will automatically get the seat for Form 6.

And at the same time , my friend whose got almost same result as I do persuaded me to appeal for matriculation , telling me that STPM will waste ur time , since it takes 2 years for completion and there is no guarantee for scoring 4 Flat. Yes, as far as I know , most people thought that it is difficult to get CGPA 4.00 for STPM compared to local matriculation.

But I never forget about the newspapers that I read on 15 March 2007 , the day when STPM 2006 results released. And I saw the success of my previous school senior , which scored 4.00 in STPM , Wow , so great he was. At that moment I had imagined myself getting the same result 2 years after. Surely the feeling is so excited.

And therefore I gave up chance to appeal for local matriculation , instead choosing STPM as my next pathway.

Realising that STPM is not easy , I prepared myself early even before school registration starts.

AND my journey in STPM begins...................

After SPM 3: PSD interview

During the day of interview , I went to the place of interview at INTAN Sungai Petani,Kedah , which took around a hour to reach from my house. I entered the interview room with full confidence. However the full confidence seems to be useless. The interview was assessed via psychology test and face to face interview.

Well psychology test seems to be fair to all those candidates , but not for interview. The interview was in form of 6 person per group discussing a given current issue using both Malay and English language. Oh my god, I was so unlucky of being grouped with 5 other English fluent students , looks like it is not a good day for me.

I still remember my topic: Children nowadays like to play computer games. They cannot perform well in their studies. What do u think? Whether u support or oppose?

I did another mistake, I prepared my point in English first , but suddenly the interviewers requested for discussion in Malay. But I had no much problem for it.

The Malay language discussion ended well , all of us were equally competitive but the difference come when English language was used.

Most of time during the English discussion I support the statements , but it looks like all other 5 candidates did played computer games and they chose to oppose my points. Furthermore all of their English commands were great and far better than me. I was just like being "attacked" and "bombarded" by them. And my pronounciation was not well and lack of fluency , giving me further disadvantage of counter-attack or defending myself.

Then I ended up with knowing that it was extremely little chance form me to be offered.

And that is because I did not improve my speaking skills well.

I regret for it.

And a months later , as what I had predicted , I was rejected by PSD. My dream to Australia had gone.

But I had to proceed to my further studies. However there were still options : local MOE matriculation and STPM a.k.a Malaysia High School Certificate.

Now I need to choose between one of them , because both options were cheaper and affordable.

What would be my option...........May 2007.................

After SPM 2 : Visit to hospital

And my SPM result did made me eligible to apply for PSD scholarship. Therefore I chose to apply for it. Dare to change , never afraid and escape. And u know what? I applied Medicine course! Which is the most competitive course ever and always being favourites of SPM top scorers.

But I realised that I was not really stand a chance , because I just achieved A2 for my Biology which is crucial aspect of selection for medicine course , but I never regret choosing it instead of choosing those courses that I was confident of.

Why should u choose the course that u can be offered but not being ur favourite? Just because of getting foreign degree? Sorry if my words had insulted some of the readers , I was so sorry , no offence just to voice out my opinion. But on the other hand think positively maybe u will find interest during u pursue the new course offered. Yes , there is always a hope even though u may not like the offer.

Yes I was given a chance for my application. PSD accepted my attempt. And for Medicine course , all those applicants had to undergo a programme called exposure to the career of doctor. It was in the form of hospital visit for 3 days.

Whew , I glad I was given a chance , I just prepared myself for the hospital visit , I still remember that the hospital supervisor which I guessed he was also a specialist welcomed us with warmth feeling , smiling and good eye contact. Then he organized a seminar to reveal to us the real life of a medical doctor , telling us that the reality of a doctor does not seem to be easy as we always seen in TV drama series. The real doctors had to work overtime due to shortage of medical personnels. Oh man , I can't imagine that , and he also told us that one should not think of making money through medical career , only being a specialist then u may earn quite a huge amount of salary monthly , but it was not easy to be a specialist as well. The seminar ended and he adviced us to think and consider well before we proceed.

With this seminar , he called it a day and we went back home. I sat down and think whether I should proceed or not. If I chose to proceed , then I had to be well prepared to face a harsh life as medical student as well as medical doctor after my graduation. But then I realise that it was challenge and I believe I can make it through. So I decided to proceed.

Yo, I made through the 3 days hospital visit and I gave a good impression to all those medical doctors,medical assistants as well as nurses. Whoo.........So great feeling.

Next I was happy of getting chance for final interview,and I thought that my interviewing skills were adequate to convince the PSD officers.

But thought remain a thought.

After SPM 1: options to be decided

After SPM , there were variety of routes of further studies , like A-Level , South Australian Matriculation , university foundations , etc.

However do u realise that all those options were costly?

Basically u need to spent at least RM 10K++ for tuition fees , hey it does not include accomodation and living costs.

Oh my goodness , how can my family afford all those costly studies?

My family is not born with silver spoon on mouths , we are just in moderate financial condition , enough to feed all the members but do not have extra money for me to study all those foreign pre university studies.

Being an obedient son , I will be cruel enough if I insisted to study all those money sucking pre u studies. Therefore I narrowed down my choices to a few left.

I believe Public Service Department (PSD) foreign scholarships were dreams of all those SPM high achievers , as well as me , even though my result may not be excellent than those being published and interviewed by the medias.

Every SPM top scorer wants to fly away from Malaysia to pursue their dream courses in various foreign countries , because it is just like a wonderful chance in your lifetime.

As the saying goes , "Golden opportunity only knock once" , for sure SPM top scorers will never want to miss out this once in a life time chance to study abroad , every top students are competing for a golden or hot seat (like what Air Asia said for their precious seat) to be selected as PSD scholars and returning back to Malaysia as oversea graduates.

Hey man , who don't like these all wonderful life? Holding a foreign university graduate scroll seems to be so great and unique compared to those local university graduates. Many people admired the higher standard of foreign degrees , but actually Malaysian local degrees are considered quite a high standard also.

Haha , I love Malaysia , and as a Malaysian I should be proud with my own country , no matter how great is the other foreign country , because I love the country where I was born.........

I also had a dream of getting PSD foreign scholarship , thinking that I would be graduated with foreign degree and returned to my own country and serve well Malaysian government.Malaysia boleh. yo........... (so fantasizing of me ar????)

Maybe you are wondering where I wished to pursue my foreign studies if I was offered with PSD scholarship?

Well I wish to go a country with apple trees,jumping kangaroos , and with 4 seasons , guess what?

It is Australia that I always dreamt of , yes I like Australia , I always seen people on the drama series sitting under the trees , in a wide grassy field to study. Wow , so nice and that is the kind of conducive study environment that I was looking for.......

With fresh air and calm place of study , I believe I can simply ease all my stresses and worries. So that I can be more concentrate on my studies. Hereby boost up my performance and may get distinction for every university examinations , whoo.........someone is too imaginative , I knew and that was me. But who knows?Maybe it does.

A miracle in my Form 5 life 2

But I took it for granted. I glad I had seen this advertisement , because the day after it was a new change over of Shong Sheng , which was a person with more confidence and strength.

I started applying the method suggested by the Stabilo Multi coloured pens advertisement , I incorporate the method into my usual study habit and it does work!

Wow , fantastically my results did elevated up and drastically different than previous time.

Many of my classmates felt strange about my sudden turn over and seeking for my secret recipe of success , of course i just answered them with...................Applying various colours in your study.

They were stunned and some said that I was mad with colours.

Its true that I really find totally fascinated with various colours in my life.........

Many may think that the colours do not boost up their memories , but it does effective for me , with the aid of colourful pens , my later Form 5 life had made a difference and I performed well in SPM 2006.

Thanks to Stabilo Multi color pens that had gave me a new leash of life , therefore I always advised my juniors to use color in their notes to increase their memories , however my story does not ends here.............

After my SPM results was released , I was once again in doubt , kept on thinking of my next route of further studies. What next after SPM?

So doubtful.............

A miracle in my Form 5 life 1

Today I was so in good mood that I would like to share my stories to my dear friends and readers , u may not be interested with it but yet I still want to write my short chronicles.

Maybe it need to be reflected to beginning of my Form 5 times,i.e. during year 2006.

Of course most of readers would had thought of nothing unusual about my Form 5 times coz mostly it was just about studying hard for SPM preparation.

Of course I was not exempted , surely I also worked hard for my future determining exam i.e SPM,

But through this short chronicle , I would like to appreciate my amazing events that had made a turn over in my life.

Until Form 5 I was still used of conventional method of study , i.e mostly using single colored highlighter for my notes or just blindly memorize the facts of certain subjects.

The consequence is that my performance in school tests and exams did not go well. I kept finding solutions for this problem.But yet I still can't find it,until........................

An advertisement had changed over my life!

U can never imagine,many thought that advertisements do not benefit people instead trying to make profit from it , of course I thought negatively about it as well,but after I had seen the advertisement , I had changed my mind.

I realized that it is not true , not all advertisements are nonsense , there are some which benefit public , especially desperated student like me , which always like to seek for ways to improve my study.

The advertisement really like a miracle for me , Many people may had seen it but just took it lightly , but I never do so. For me , every single matter does has its importance.

And my perception was true and granted me with a light of hope , when I was so depressed and craving for advancement of my study.

I guess most of the people had seen it on TV during commercial break , the miracle advertisement was Stabilo point 88 multi coloured pens! which displays 25 coloured pens , with lucrative way of presentation,telling people that these pens do help boosting up one's memory by 78% , a figure which I can never forget.

Many people or geniuses surely do not believe it! And choose to ignore it.

My feeling now

I can't really understand my situation now.

Lucky or unlucky

Owing to UNIMAS

Very suffering I am

Every second I kept on stressful and having some regrets which can never be reversed back

Massive lecture notes

Also thick medical books

Less time for leisure

Also short holiday

Yet UM, UKM, USM, UPM and UMS got sem breaks,oh my goodness

So

Ironic for

A UNIMAS medical student like me.

My voice of heart

Now I am still adapting to brand new UNIMAS university life,which I never experienced before,compared to those my coursemates from local MOE matriculation.For them they were totally get used of it.

My pre university life was almost like secondary school life,or maybe I should said that it is totally the same.

Recalling 15 May 2007,the day I registered to KSAH (Kolej Sultan Abdul Hamid) , my previous form 6 school.By settling my mind well to be ready to face the great challenging time for 1 and half year time,I considered my STPM (Sijil Tinggi Pelajaran Malaysia, a.k.a. Malaysia High School Certificate) life quite hostile and fantastic.

I have plenty of time for preparation for STPM,even though people always think that STPM has a great study and work loads.It is true about the heavy load of STPM, no wonder many people refrain and try to avoid attempting STPM. Haiz.....

Actually in order to excel in STPM,the key is study hard and study smart.while I considered myself as study smart,in fact I rarely study for long time during my Form 6 times,most of times I apply correct method of study which I always proud of.

This is because my STPM result had shown that my unique study methods (actually not really my own creation, I was getting ideas of combating STPM via STPM 2006 high achievers whose were interview by local newspapers, and I had cut those articles down, trying to formulate my own methods unique to myself based on their experiences) which do really works, Hooray.....

But now in MD programme or Medicine course in UNIMAS does not permit me to be study smart anymore,the timetable is more prone or beneficial to those like to study hard,which I was not under that category,so sadddddd...............=(

What should I do?

I really feel hopeless,even though I listen to my favourite Lee Hom / 王力宏's songs to ease myself from stress,yet I still find it difficult to adapt to the tightly so called "good timetable" by Dean.

The only way to help me to endure and struggle through is by uphold of my idol Master Bruce Lee's principles and philosophies.

Now I felt like spiritless,losing all my directions,recalling that I had struggled and well determined since Form 4 just to study Medicine,now I was not really sure about my study strategies,seeing that all my previous study methods were ineffective now,I was totally depressed and sad.

During my pre university time,my glory could be achieved due to my own created unique study methods,but totally useless or non applicable in university time,particularly my favourite medicine course.

I was find myself hardly to bare with the stressful life,which I never go through,I was green on experiencing university life,feeling that I was lacking of support,of course my family members always support me,however I lost the motivation to proceed.

I really interested to study Medicine,but I was still not well equipped with good mentality and perception as well as study strategies which being vital keys to strive for the success.

Recently my performance in End of Block 1 examination and Block 2 quiz 1 do not go well,which kept on disappointing me.

But no matter what, I always remember chorus from "The Legend of Bruce Lee" theme song that is "You will never surrender"

That word always reflected and appeared in my mind

Therefore I will never give up.

Keep my hard work.........

I am Magnum万能001 ，"Nothing is impossible, Impossible is nothing" , I always believe on this...............

Arrangement

19 June 2009,another bad day for me.

This is the day where the UPU application result released,which u will know the university and course being offered.

The result was officially released on 12 pm sharp,however I have had been worried for whole night before the day and caused me unable to sleep well.

Thinking that it will bright up my future and my dream,I patiently waiting in front on the monitor screen with well access to UPU website,just waiting for them to allow for result checking.I had a dream of entering Medicine course in Malaysia's oldest and historical university,Universiti Malaya,which I believed many applicants had the same dream oso.

I had put my best hope on UPU result,thinking that it will cheer me up,since the so called Apex University had rejected me without reason,which made me so angry and frustrated.

And thinking that the effort that I had put on for 2 years in my pre uiversity life,just aiming to enter the best local public university I can.

Of course honestly speaking,my favorite place of pursuing my medical education would be Australia,which I was so adored with jumping kangaroos,boost me up to study harder in order to achieved my real dream.With addition that the study environment is quite condusive and motivative,but it doesn't mean that I do not like Malaysia,I love Malaysia so much,as much as my Australia kangaroo.Malaysia boleh.

However back to reality,it still appeared as a dream,because for these few years,it was not likely for me to visit or study at Australia. I failed to secure JPA oversea undergraduate scholarship due my not really satisfying performance in SPM.I understood.Therefore I wolud like to opt to Malaysia's so called challenging examination that is STPM for my pre university studies.

Back to the exciting time,finally I knew my UPU application result,of course initially I was quite delightful because I was successfully being offed with Medicine course,however thing does not ends here,when I checked further on my university offered,oh my gosh..............................................................................................

It was UNIMAS,also known as Universiti Malaysia Sarawak,the code is WM00,W means that I need a pair of wings,indicating that I need to take airplane to travel there.Unbelievable.I was stunned,maybe u will say that u should be glad being offered,yes u are right.

But ........it doesn't satisfy me,thinking that my performance in STPM was considerably good,at least should be offered with Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM).

Looks like UPU does not fulfilled my single and simple dream,which I would satisfy that I pursued my medicine course in UM,even though I cannot make it in my wonderful Australia.

I can't do anything other than accepting the offer,I calm down and think again.Maybe there will be surprise for me and even more challenges.Just like I thought that STPM was quite challenging and go through it happily.

Life does not easily end up with hopeless.There are still chances.Maybe I could choose Australia for my 4th year elective posting,if cannot,then I may go for my master or specialist study,looking at jumping kangaroos made me so excited and relieve my stress.

Now I was in UNIMAS for a few months,yet still finding ways to adapt and settle down.Wherever I study,just put my best effort and I believed that I will never be disappointed.

The roots of education are bitter,but the fruit is sweet.

Thanks for reading............these were my real feelings which I would like to voice out from long time ago..............I still a Malaysian and therefore I love Malaysia..................................................

Decision

Recalling to 31 May 2009.which I called it as 531,considered as my saddest day.

Most of the undergraduates by 2009/2010 intake will know about the USM blunder.

Which is famous news around our nation.

However I was stunned totally,I was rejected.Seriously why I would like to say so?

Coz the weird thing is that I was not called for interview even.It was totally ridiculous.Just like sentenced me to death without allowing me to defend myself thro interview.

Feel like unbelieveable,my darkest day ever.My happiest day would be 10 March 2009,310,guess wat happen on that day?I guess most of readers would knew about it.

However my glory does not last long as following days never go well.

People always say that there is up and down in life,but I felt like more upset events than fascinating event.Until now I still cannot forget about it.Thinking that the decision made by the so called Apex University had separated me from my hometown.Made me feel so pain............