SongFall

This is my latest updated blog after gaining inspiration from the latest Bond series movie "Skyfall". Well I had not watched the movie yet, but knowing the synopsis and watching the trailer in brief gave me a surge of intense feeling about the meaning behind Skyfall. This is just my personal opinion, which does not represent others' view on this title. 

I feel that the plot of story inside Skyfall does not restricted in movie per se, in real life such kind of plot does exists, and I believe that at some point of time, not at the present moment, such plot may happen to me as well, of course it won't be Skyfall if happen in my life, I would rather named it as "SongFall", because the actor is James Bond, I am not. I am Song, Magnum Song. James Bond is a secret agent, while Magnum Song is a university student. Hahaha. 

"SongFall" is a story of mine which might resemble the plot of story in the movie Skyfall, well if you ask me what plot did I mention, I would not elaborate here. I suggest you can watch the trailer, or synopsis at least if you reluctant to watch the whole movie in order to understand the plot. Basically my impression or insight gained from the title "SkyFall" is a kind of downhill where one rises up again to redeem himself in term of pride, pitfall of life which will cause significant change in one's life. 

Thus my own story "SongFall" in my imagination would be in future, or near future, where I might encounter pitfalls of life, aka downhills, in which I have to find a way to react to it. To make it clearer, I am more concerned to discuss about grieving as in my own "SongFall", a story of how Magnum Song react to  loss by grieving. 

Oh, a disclaimer: this story line is just a kind of imagination, a projection of the blog author in response to issue of grieving and the movie title "SkyFall".

To avoid confusion, it is better to clarify few terms. Grief refers to the feelings that arise when you suffer a loss in your life. Loss refers to a breaking of a bond you’ve formed with a significant person, place, thing, or idea (including beliefs) in your life. Grieving refers to the process of acknowledging the loss, experiencing the grief that the loss produces, and incorporating the loss into the rest of your life.

I remembered that one of psychiatrists that I had his lectures being attended, had mentioned that everyday is a loss, where we lost our yesterday, but at the same time we gain the present, and accompanied by tomorrow which depends upon how one react to the present moment he gained. Therefore everyday indeed grieving process does happens, knowingly or unknowingly by an individual. I agreed and amazed with his thought regarding this issue, well is up to the readers to decide to agree or agree not. 

In order to understand grieving, I would suggest 3 actions: acknowledge the loss, experience it and incorporate the loss into the remainder of your life. Well I am not the one saying that, you can find the suggestions in a book called "Grieving for Dummies". The 3 elements will be related to the imaginary hero, Magnum Song in "SongFall"

First, acknowledge the loss. This task can run the gamut from accepting the awful truth of it to finally facing up to its lasting impact on your life. Mr. Magnum learned from the element that he lost his yesterday from the moment he wakes up in the morning of a new day, and he accepts that time flies. Actions done cannot be undone, thus he chooses to let everyday happens as it is to be. 

Next, Mr. Magnum learned to experience the grief the loss produces. This task can run the gamut from suffering the wave of emotions it brings up to contemplating its influence on his life. He realized that he lost something for everything he is working for. For instance by opting to watch movie during weekend, he lost few hours of studying or other leisure activities. He experienced a feeling of loss, where he realized that he cannot make both ends meet. Therefore he decided to follow his instinct to guide his decision making throughout his life, as he has to be responsible for every action he takes. 

Lastly, Mr. Magnum learned to incorporate the loss into the remainder of his life.This task can run the gamut from simply surviving the grief produced by the loss to fully integrating the loss into his everyday life. He gets to understand the loss is part and parcel of his life, and therefore he is able to grief over every loss he encounters, because he understands that his loss will be accompanied by a gain, where seen immediately or in near future. 

In short, "SongFall" illustrates the actor, Magnum Song as a guy who learned to respond to loss in his everyday life by grieving. He will try his best to cope up with any pitfall that he might encounter in future. 

My birthday 11/11/2012

11/11/2012, another year of birthday for me, well as usual I would like to appreciate my mother for bearing me in her tummy for about 10 months and tolerated the pain of labour. I will not be here writing this blog without her sacrifice to deliver, raise and support me all the while.

My birthday wish was same like previous year, therefore I would not elaborate much on that, those who had followed my previous blogs might had some clues about it. Haha. 

This year I felt myself growing up and exposed to many things in the world, well this is my own perception, you may or may not agree with it. I began to feel good about myself and close to the path of light, where one day I will be moving toward the right direction of life. 

Ever since I been leaving secondary school, I was bound to decision making in daily life, for instance choosing path of pre university education, application for local public universities with course of interest, financial assistance during university time, and many others which I find would be exhaustive if I further elaborate. Until now, I still feel that decision making is a kind of daunting task for me, as I bear the consequence(s) for each decision that I made, where I can't put blame on others. 

Anyway, I am certain that every decision that I made is correct at the point of time, and I should not regret on it.

Thank you. 

Brand new of Myself

It had been quite some time that I had not updated my blog. I had been posted at Psychiatry wards for almost half of posting duration.

Initial impression was unpleasant, where I kept believe in what patients say causing me to be in sort of confusion or fear, which most of the time I heard about seeing or hearing unusual voices or figures.

However later on I began to adapt to these situations where I instead listen to patient, but do not allow those words to attach as it is, I tried to figure out what the hidden agenda behind patients' words. The change in approach allows me to overcome previous experience of unnecessary confusion or fear.

By seeing so many psychiatric patients, where they wonder around and seem like so free, sometimes I did admire them in that sense, however reality check told me these sort of so called 'leisure" come with price - lost of "real freedom".

All the while being inflicted with negative happening more than positive kind, I came across my mind of giving up.

However by seeing some so called "insane" patients (no offense), I had came to a thought that I should be grateful for being sane and granted with real freedom: able to travel independently, not institutionized, can go shopping malls, etc.

Especially when I encounter a very "special" patient who really talkative, with lots of ideas, being self proud, excessive "euphoric" state, he himself had gave me inspiration that I have to move on, my life has not come to the end yet. In fact the inspiration I earned from him is as same as quoted by one great psychiatrist: "life is full of mess, just deal with it and move on".

I won't know what will happen in the future, so just see how it goes, and my life goes on.

Silence is golden

Silence and noise, another pair of opposing matters, after being discussed about dream versus reality, and followed by truth versus lie. Suddenly I had been in feeling of sharing my personal view upon silence and noise.

Sometimes is better to keep silent than to tell others what you feel because it hurts badly when you come to know that they can hear you but can not understand.

To find a real and sincere listener is as looking for precious gem, it was somewhere around us, but yet to be discovered. That is my perception about listener.

Being a listener, one has to listen, not just hear, listen by mean of being focus, concentrate on the person who speaks or voice out his / her words. By hearing itself, one could not understand the meaning(s) being portrayed by the one who speaks. Without understanding there is no point being a listener.

Therefore some people might just opt to be silent rather than looking for listener, because it disappoints more when one hears but can not understand.

Good listener will just listen all along the words from the one who speaks, and responds after understand the meaning(s) behind those words. However such good listeners are rarely seen, in reality not much of such good quality of listeners.

Dark and Light

It has been a long time where I had not been updating my blog, as I did not have ample of time for constructing my new blog title.

What I think about my new topic would be some new thoughts that came across my mind not long ago.

In the past, most often I can't see what was in front of my path, mainly I referred myself as in dark condition, where I seemed like walking without any trace, while I still have to continue walking. Somehow I was just walking without knowing the end, where everything seemed to be black for me. 

I kept telling myself on day the light will come upon me to shine into the dark sight from me, where I can find my real path to move forward. 

There were few times where I thought I saw some bright shines, but eventually it turned out to be dimmer and dimmer as times goes by, where I found the truth behind those "lights". After all my path turned out to be dark again, as I was at rock tunnel without any single hole for light to come in.

There will be one day where I found the real light that shine upon my path, where I found the lead to my true way to move on, I believe and I will not give up. 

Truth and Lie

Principle of Ying Yang saying that there are many opposing matters around us in the world, for example good vs evil, dream vs reality, and same goes to truth and lie. Well in previous blog I had discussed about dream vs reality with their contrast features. Here I will discuss on truth and lie. 

Truth is opposed by lie, which truth being the state of being in accordance with fact or reality, on the other hand lie is defined as to hold something which one knows is not the whole truth to be the whole truth, intentional.

In my own point of view, lie can be interpreted in 2 different contexts. First to hide the truth or not willing to let others know the real meaning or context. Secondly with good intention to protect others from getting inflicted by knowing the truth. Either one has its pros and cons. 

Actually, my personal view was that either truth or lie is a double edged sword. Why did I said so? 

Because by knowing truth or lie, there are always two possible outcomes: feeling good or feeling bad, isn't it? Don't you agree with that?

On the other hand, the outcomes of telling truth or lie also depends on the context of the speaker(s) and interpreter(s) / listener(s). Of course good news can be very entertaining, however bad news will be very sad and depressing. 

Once truth or lie is being revealed, it can no longer hide itself, It had revealed its identity, to both speaker(s) and interpreter(s) / listener(s). Truth or lie can be known by listening, seeing, hearing, touching and searching. What I am trying to portray here is that once one had seen it, heard about it, thought about it, truth or lie will revealed itself through. Just like in context of dream vs reality in my previous blog (http://magnumsst.blogspot.com/2012/05/dream-reality-opposed-or-similar.html). In fact the duo can be linked with current topic: truth and lie. How??

Just like someone lying to others, where people believes on him / her, in fact those people who believe are dreaming, because they haven't wake up to face the reality, they are being in the state of disillusionment, Perhaps the someone has done it intentionally or unintentionally. However bear in mind that lie can hardly hide itself long from people's mind, one day when lie revealed, and that will be the time where people know about the truth. That also marks the time where people who believes in lie previously (dreamers) have to face with the truth in reality. All happens just about in a matter of time. 

Truth or lie, by revealing itself, brings about certain meaning or agenda, depending on interpretations of people knowing it. 

Human are bound to choice, where they can choose to accept or deny the meaning behind truth or lie. People can choose to accept or deny about a lie, however once truth is being known, one can hardly deny its presence. Truth is almost always true, whether you like it or not. 

All in all, truth or lie can be protective to one side of people, on another side of people it can be devastating, all depending on interpretation of the fact(s) being good or bad. In reality, not all truth brings about good feelings, similarly not all lie brings about anger or bad feeling. Once you had seen, or heard about truth, you have to accept it because it cannot be changed, unlike lie where it may be twisted around.


What you see may not be what you get, what you heard may not be what you think, but reasoning will draw some conclusions behind it, and when you get to know that it was the truth, then you have no choice other than to accept it as it is to be. Whatever happens behind it no longer serve its importance, truth always a truth, until and unless one forgets about it, otherwise it remains as truth itself. Remember the feeling inflicted upon knowing the truth is permanent, either good or bad feeling. 

Dream & Reality: Opposed or similar?

Dreams may be horrible or wonderful. As for many people, they always fond of having wonderful dreams, similarly it happens to me as well.

Wonderful dreams sometimes come into my mind, in which whatever I expect in reality occurs in my dreams, all my bucket lists seemed to be fulfilled. But upon waking up, dreams remain dreams, fantasy remains as fantasy, they are still not real, though.

Reality mostly opposed of my wonderful dreams, things that I always think of, appeared too ideally inside my dreams, I realize those are just fantasies, but I chose to enjoy that short temporary moments of joyness and perhaps, pseudo euphoria. Soon and later, in daytime when I am facing reality, it hurts, causing pain, feeling of sorrow. 

Well, inside my dreams, island become land, which was filled with much activities, happiness, and I realize those were dreams, I gonna be excited shortly, but the cruelness of reality comes much aggressive and longer duration of pain and sorrow feeling, which I have no choice but to bear with it.

What you see may not be what you get or think, but reasoning will tell the real meaning behind your visual memories, they don't just happen in front of your eyes for nothing. Perhaps they are trying to confer some hidden meanings which I have to justify those wisely. I don't always judge something by just simply glance or look through. However I can't avoid that whatever I seen remains reality, they can't be just dreams. The visual context may differ with exact context, but seriously does them differ much?? 

Sometimes I told myself, whatever I seen was something very casual or usual, but thorough judgement and justification did comes with similar meaning with visual interpretation. And thus I told myself, FACE THE REALITY!!!

"WAKE UP FROM UR FANTASY DREAM!! You are living in world full of reality". I realized that I have to accept the fact that most of unhappy events or experiences will come along with me throughout my life journey, I can't be euphoric all the while, but if I really get a chance into it I gonna appreciate it for long, because happiness is cure to my pain. 

Island still remains as island, island hardly become land. I understand it, and I accept as it is to be, being part of my life, REALITY, with dreams and fantasies as my sources of euphoria, perhaps accompanied by some real life pleasurable moments. Hahahahaha.

Life is full of choices

The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim Because it was grassy and wanted wear, Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I marked the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I, I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference.  Since born we were bound to decision making, and being guided by our family members. However as we grow older to teen age, we began to bear responsibilities behind each of our decisions.  And when I looked back at the poem above, I began to recall my situations, where since I entered university, I had to learn to decide by my own, and be responsible for the consequences. I am not sure how capable I am to learn to adapt to this kind of situation, however it was inevitable, I was far apart from my family, I had to learn to handle situations by my own.  Sometimes I find myself able to handle decision making wisely, but not always. Apparently there will be time where I was in dilemma, especially when two options were given, but only one option was allowed to be, there won't be such ideally win - win situation, then there will be time where proper justification of pros and cons required, it was not easy, and you can't foresee what will be the consequences of each decision made, you just can walk step by step along your life journey based on decision made. Just like the above sentences "Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both, And be one traveler, long I stood, And looked down one as far as I could, To where it bent in the undergrowth".  Therefore I was stuck in my own timeline, where I can't simply let go of my past, at the same time wondering about mysterious future in front of me. I hardly step on either one, because once I step on it, I have to sacrifice the other one, thus I was bound to my own dilemma.  As the time goes by, I had been exposed to various people, whose being kind and friendly , hippocratic, realistic, futuristic, idealistic and many more. And with those experiences I acquired along my journey, I began to see a light in my path, seems to be giving me some clues about my dilemma.  So I am now prepared to make my wise decision, so that I no longer stuck in my own path.

Strong and overcome your deep darkness

“If you have made mistakes, even serious ones, there is always another chance for you. What we call failure is not the falling down, but the staying down.” - Mary Pickford

Beyond childhood, you may have experienced setbacks or letdowns for which you clearly recall the reasoning. Often we are so opposed to change that the slightest sign a new way of doing things isn’t working out becomes the signal to stop trying. We are creatures of habit, and breaking the mold we’ve created for ourselves is a challenge few feel they have the time or the energy to face.

Failure does upset some of us, but as well provides lesson to be learnt, reminding us that the outcomes of your decision, especially when you are adolescent whose you have to be responsible for each action / decision to be made, You yourself accountable for your own choice. Life does comes with choices, although  not always, instead sometimes. 

Realizing the fact, I have to justify each of my action / decision wisely as I have to bear the consequences afterward, which sound sweet if I made it right, or otherwise feel harsh when sadness comes in.

“All of us are born with a set of instinctive fears- of falling, of the dark, of lobsters, of falling on lobsters in the dark or speaking before the Rotary Club, and of the words “Some Assembly Required.” - Dave Barry

Where all else fails to stop us from achieving what we want from life, fear steps in. We experience fear on both conscious and unconscious levels, and it is one of the most limiting emotions we possess. In some cases fear is justified, and even healthy.

For example, a person contemplating crossing a busy street will harbor a healthy fear of being struck by two tons of rapidly moving steel commonly known as a motor vehicle (at least, if he or she is a reasonably sane person who understands the basic laws of physics: moving car + walking person = splat). This fear breeds caution, which causes the person to look both ways for oncoming traffic and wait for an appropriate time to venture across the road. 

However, unjustified fear- which can be just as crippling and realistic as justified fear- is more often the case when fear is a factor. Not many people risk their lives on a regular basis. Humiliation, rejection, and failure top the list* of limiting fears that can be overcome with practice and determination.

Humiliation occurs everywhere, from the beginning of school life till the end of life, depends on situation, some people experienced it almost everyday. The feeling doesn't looks good, and one can never understand until he / she experienced it, which I believe will occur to most people nowadays.

Rejection can be in many senses, like application for jobs, universities, colleges, scholarships, relationship etc. I had experienced it few times, like during application for foreign scholarship, entrance to "apek" varsity etc. However I had realized these were part of my journey of life, and being lessons to be learnt. 

Failure varies depends on people's individual perception. I kept on straining myself to overcome my own limit and thus whenever I can't achieve my expectation, I considered myself failed. However after serious reflection and thorough thinking, I knew that my efforts may not be sufficient but I still can work harder in subsequent attempts. I shouldn't being down, but instead keep strong and move forward.

* Actually, spiders top the list of fears for most people. Arachnophobia- fear of spiders- is the most common type of fear in the world. However, fear of spiders is completely justifiable, as spiders are creepy eight-legged insects with fangs, alien eyes, and a tendency to drop on you out of nowhere.

One of the easiest and most successful methods of dealing with fear is exposure therapy, which is actually facing your fears one small step at a time. If you don’t feel you can handle exposure therapy alone, enlist a friend to participate- especially if you can find a friend who doesn’t fear the same things you do. With exposure therapy, the objective is to experience fear to a small degree several times, so that each time it becomes easier to conquer. (Please note that exposure therapy does not apply to every situation. For example, if you are afraid of flying, it is not recommended that you leap from successively higher perches and attempt to become airborne.)

Quoted from book "The Power of Positive Thinking"

Living in the past? Time to look forward

“Upon our children, how they are taught, rests the fate- or fortune- of tomorrow’s world.” - B. C. Forbes

The things we learn in childhood aren’t easy to forget- mostly because we don’t actively remember them. It is far harder to dislodge subconscious thought. When we are unaware not only of why we embrace or avoid certain things, but also unaware of the fact that we are embracing or avoiding them, pinpointing the roots of our actions is a difficult process.

Childhood lessons don’t always come from our parents, and often not even the messages we received from them were intentionally placed there. For example, if your parents raised you to be helpful, courteous, polite, and giving, you may have learned those lessons so well that the very idea of doing something for yourself makes you cringe- and you may not know why. On the other hand, if your parents gave you everything you wanted without you ever asking for it or lifting a finger, you may project those same expectations on everyone around you- again, with no idea why you’re doing it, or even that you are doing it at all. Many times, outwardly selfish people are shocked to discover that others perceive them as selfish. They may even believe themselves the kindest, most benevolent people they know.

Whatever happened in the past remains lessons to be learnt, however one should look forward for better changes. As the saying goes: "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery, today is present", that's why today is a gift for us everyday.

Quoted and Adapted from book "The Power of Positive Thinking"

Destiny and self esteem

“The greatest revolution of our generation is the discovery that human beings, by changing the inner attitudes of their minds, can change the outer aspects of their lives.” - William James

What’s holding you back? Even those who fully embrace the theory of positive thinking may feel some qualms over entrusting their lives to mere thought. There are many possibilities that could be producing weeds in your mental garden, and the best way to get rid of a weed is to yank it out, roots and all. 

Perhaps all is about destiny, as humans can only plan, but God is the one to decide. Brain has 2 hemispheres, implying things come in both sides, positive and negative aspects, also implies other issues. Till now I think only one of my hemispheres was used, awaiting second brain to fulfill and enrich my another seldom used brain hemisphere, to make myself more complete.

For most of human existence, self-esteem was an unheard-of notion akin to the theories of those heretics who believed the world was round. The term “self-esteem” - defined by Webster’s Dictionary as “pride in oneself; self-respect” - made its way into the common public awareness during the ‘60s and ‘70s as a catch-all term to describe the essence of parenting problems. The “old ways” of parenting were pronounced barbaric and damaging to the budding self-esteem of our youth, and many parents fearful of raising unhappy, ill-adjusted children took advice that led to a generation of children with high self-esteem...so high it eclipsed personal responsibility and created a “me-first” mentality.

On the other hand, most of us are taught that thinking highly of ourselves is a vain, selfish and undesirable trait. Advice telling us to feel better about ourselves and occasionally put us first seems counterintuitive at best. After all, isn’t self-love the first step on the road to Ego Central? Many people want to feel good about

themselves, but guilt too often rears its ugly head and stops healthy self-esteem from developing.

Because of these conflicting viewpoints, self-esteem is a tricky little emotion to manipulate. It’s important to strike a balance between modesty and greed. It takes practice to convince yourself that you are a worthwhile and deserving person, while at the same time keeping in mind that you’re not the center of the universe. Though it may sound impossible, it’s actually simple to accomplish.

Destiny does plays some roles, but human efforts indeed important. Just try to put all your efforts and leave the rest to the God.

Hardship is temporary indulgent of self

“In every phenomenon the beginning remains always the most notable moment.”- Thomas Carlyle

To tune in to the power of positive thinking, you should probably start small particularly if you don’t believe it will work. It’s one thing to tell yourself, “Tomorrow, when I wake up in the morning I won’t hit snooze a dozen times and feel drowsy for the rest of the day,” and quite another to tell yourself, “Tomorrow, when I wake up in the morning I’ll be living independently wealthy and living in a mansion.” (Unless, of course, you are in fact independently wealthy and living in a mansion at the moment; in which case you might try to think your way into ownership of a small country.)

The process of making positive thinking work for you begins with destruction, or at least a mild shift in your thought structure. In order to make room for new methods and ideas, you must first tear out all the old negativity patterns you’ve been building throughout your life. For some, this can be a gradual process: as you witness positive thinking work for you, one small step at a time, you will slowly clear out those good-things-only-happen-to-other-people thoughts, and be able to cultivate the seeds of change.

Sometimes, I realized that some worries inside myself may be unnecessary, and compulsive thinking is not always be useful in all aspects, perhaps in certain aspects are good to be simple, using first instinct with proper justification, correct timing etc.

Hardships occur daily, sometimes those really made people get upset easily, support via friends, close friends, partner, motivations etc indeed are necessary to keep one strong to withstand. 

I had been always cheer myself up no matter how "sourly" I had tasted. Probably these events are my challenges to mold my better self, I just can tell myself, do my best and leave the rest to happen as it flows.

“The greatest revolution of our generation is the discovery that human beings, by changing the inner attitudes of their minds, can change the outer aspects of their lives.” - William James

New Year 2012 New Dedication

My dedication for this new year 2012 is to instilled positive thinking into my life, not only for problem solving, but also for sake of attitude and perception of life. Most of the following words are quoted from book called "Power of Positive Thinking"

Some people said that positive Thinking is a Bunch of Crap, however Crap does makes Great Fertilizer.

“A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.” Herm Albright

At some point in your life, you’ve probably heard about the power of positive thinking. Basically, this is a theory that contends if you believe good things will happen to you, there will be some sort of cataclysmic shift in the energies surrounding you which will actually cause good things to happen to you. For as many people who believe in the power of positive thinking, there are many more who believe it’s all a bunch of New Age pop psychology drivel or sugar-coated Peter Pan platitudes.

Here’s the kicker: they’re all right.

You see, positive thinking is a system of beliefs. So if you believe it doesn’t work then, of course, it won’t work. And if you believe it does work...well, you get the idea. For non-believers, using positive thinking is like trying to get a job after high school. You need experience to get a job, but you need a job to get the experience. It can be difficult to know where you’re supposed to start. But just like any other process, the key to making positive thinking work for you is to start small. Plant seeds, if you will, and then learn how to tend and cultivate those seeds until you have a mental garden that bears a phenomenal crop, year after year. Anything is possible with positive thinking...even if you do believe it’s all a bunch of crap.

Norman Vincent Peale, the father of positive thinking, once said: “If you have zest and enthusiasm you attract zest and enthusiasm. Life does give back in kind.” This is the essence of positive thinking. It’s not so much a theory as it is a contagious disease. Just as anger and negativity spread quickly from person to person, so do humor and happiness- only good feelings spread far faster. Think about it: have you ever noticed that the quickest way to ease a tense situation is to make a joke? The instant someone laughs or smiles, a sense of relief spreads through everyone in the vicinity. Even if the angered parties don’t feel better, they are at least able to discuss the problem in a detached and objective way, and get on with their lives instead of dwelling on negativity. For that same reason, solo drivers who get cut off in traffic tend to remain angry for at least the rest of the drive- because there is no one else near them to send out good vibrations and break the tension. Makes sense, doesn’t it?

If you’ve picked up these ideas and read this far, the seeds of belief are already there. Your next step is to clear your mind’s garden of doubt and get ready to plant. You’ll learn how to take all that negativity and mulch it down into fertilizer that will let your possibilities grow.

Now grab your shovel, and let’s head in to the garden.

Upon reflection throughout the year, I had realized that my mistakes in year 2011 are compulsive thinking, indecisive, and urge to push in most matters.

Compulsive thinking and indecisive made me think twice while choosing an option or making some important decisions, in fact now I knew those bad habits were wrong and now I will decide based on my instinct.

"Urge to push" should not be continued, instead I should change my approach to let everything goes natural as according to Lao Tze's Taoism philosophy, so that I won't worry for no reason like I do in my past 1 year.

The biggest tree in the world grows from a seed you can hold between two fingers.

“Whether you think you can or whether you think you can’t...you’re right.” - Henry Ford