Awesome trip to Singapore

Recently I had been to Singapore for my backpacker trip. It was to relax myself before starting my clinical elective. Well I would say that trip to Singapore was fruitful for me, despite relatively costly if to compare with Ringgit Malaysia. 

I had a dream to pursue my clinical elective at Singapore, however due to certain unforeseen circumstances and limitations, I have to give up eventually. Anyway I believe it happens for reasons, moreover there might be chances for me to work at Singapore hospital in future. Who knows???

Thus to fulfill my dream to step into Singapore, I had made myself into visiting the country, neighbor of Malaysia on south. What had amazed me was their transportation via MRT with their efficiency and convenience to their residents and tourists as well. I also noticed that people over there moving very fast in pace, which I guess showing their attitude of being serious, efficient, and always moving forward. This phenomenon had inspired me to be as hardworking as they do, so that one day I could walk as fast as they do, think as serious as they do. Having said so, this was my personal opinion thus others need not to agree with me. 

I had a great time enjoying myself at Universal Studio Singapore, I would say it is really a must go place for those visiting Singapore. I felt entertained inside the famous tourist attraction for whole day. I will visit the place again in near future again if I am going to Singapore again. 

All in all, Singapore gave me a very good impression, I enjoy being a tourist there. Anyway I have to be realistic, to achieve my goal. Time to move forward, adopt their thinking, do it in my own way. 

SongFall

This is my latest updated blog after gaining inspiration from the latest Bond series movie "Skyfall". Well I had not watched the movie yet, but knowing the synopsis and watching the trailer in brief gave me a surge of intense feeling about the meaning behind Skyfall. This is just my personal opinion, which does not represent others' view on this title. 

I feel that the plot of story inside Skyfall does not restricted in movie per se, in real life such kind of plot does exists, and I believe that at some point of time, not at the present moment, such plot may happen to me as well, of course it won't be Skyfall if happen in my life, I would rather named it as "SongFall", because the actor is James Bond, I am not. I am Song, Magnum Song. James Bond is a secret agent, while Magnum Song is a university student. Hahaha. 

"SongFall" is a story of mine which might resemble the plot of story in the movie Skyfall, well if you ask me what plot did I mention, I would not elaborate here. I suggest you can watch the trailer, or synopsis at least if you reluctant to watch the whole movie in order to understand the plot. Basically my impression or insight gained from the title "SkyFall" is a kind of downhill where one rises up again to redeem himself in term of pride, pitfall of life which will cause significant change in one's life. 

Thus my own story "SongFall" in my imagination would be in future, or near future, where I might encounter pitfalls of life, aka downhills, in which I have to find a way to react to it. To make it clearer, I am more concerned to discuss about grieving as in my own "SongFall", a story of how Magnum Song react to  loss by grieving. 

Oh, a disclaimer: this story line is just a kind of imagination, a projection of the blog author in response to issue of grieving and the movie title "SkyFall".

To avoid confusion, it is better to clarify few terms. Grief refers to the feelings that arise when you suffer a loss in your life. Loss refers to a breaking of a bond you’ve formed with a significant person, place, thing, or idea (including beliefs) in your life. Grieving refers to the process of acknowledging the loss, experiencing the grief that the loss produces, and incorporating the loss into the rest of your life.

I remembered that one of psychiatrists that I had his lectures being attended, had mentioned that everyday is a loss, where we lost our yesterday, but at the same time we gain the present, and accompanied by tomorrow which depends upon how one react to the present moment he gained. Therefore everyday indeed grieving process does happens, knowingly or unknowingly by an individual. I agreed and amazed with his thought regarding this issue, well is up to the readers to decide to agree or agree not. 

In order to understand grieving, I would suggest 3 actions: acknowledge the loss, experience it and incorporate the loss into the remainder of your life. Well I am not the one saying that, you can find the suggestions in a book called "Grieving for Dummies". The 3 elements will be related to the imaginary hero, Magnum Song in "SongFall"

First, acknowledge the loss. This task can run the gamut from accepting the awful truth of it to finally facing up to its lasting impact on your life. Mr. Magnum learned from the element that he lost his yesterday from the moment he wakes up in the morning of a new day, and he accepts that time flies. Actions done cannot be undone, thus he chooses to let everyday happens as it is to be. 

Next, Mr. Magnum learned to experience the grief the loss produces. This task can run the gamut from suffering the wave of emotions it brings up to contemplating its influence on his life. He realized that he lost something for everything he is working for. For instance by opting to watch movie during weekend, he lost few hours of studying or other leisure activities. He experienced a feeling of loss, where he realized that he cannot make both ends meet. Therefore he decided to follow his instinct to guide his decision making throughout his life, as he has to be responsible for every action he takes. 

Lastly, Mr. Magnum learned to incorporate the loss into the remainder of his life.This task can run the gamut from simply surviving the grief produced by the loss to fully integrating the loss into his everyday life. He gets to understand the loss is part and parcel of his life, and therefore he is able to grief over every loss he encounters, because he understands that his loss will be accompanied by a gain, where seen immediately or in near future. 

In short, "SongFall" illustrates the actor, Magnum Song as a guy who learned to respond to loss in his everyday life by grieving. He will try his best to cope up with any pitfall that he might encounter in future. 

My birthday 11/11/2012

11/11/2012, another year of birthday for me, well as usual I would like to appreciate my mother for bearing me in her tummy for about 10 months and tolerated the pain of labour. I will not be here writing this blog without her sacrifice to deliver, raise and support me all the while.

My birthday wish was same like previous year, therefore I would not elaborate much on that, those who had followed my previous blogs might had some clues about it. Haha. 

This year I felt myself growing up and exposed to many things in the world, well this is my own perception, you may or may not agree with it. I began to feel good about myself and close to the path of light, where one day I will be moving toward the right direction of life. 

Ever since I been leaving secondary school, I was bound to decision making in daily life, for instance choosing path of pre university education, application for local public universities with course of interest, financial assistance during university time, and many others which I find would be exhaustive if I further elaborate. Until now, I still feel that decision making is a kind of daunting task for me, as I bear the consequence(s) for each decision that I made, where I can't put blame on others. 

Anyway, I am certain that every decision that I made is correct at the point of time, and I should not regret on it.

Thank you. 

Brand new of Myself

It had been quite some time that I had not updated my blog. I had been posted at Psychiatry wards for almost half of posting duration.

Initial impression was unpleasant, where I kept believe in what patients say causing me to be in sort of confusion or fear, which most of the time I heard about seeing or hearing unusual voices or figures.

However later on I began to adapt to these situations where I instead listen to patient, but do not allow those words to attach as it is, I tried to figure out what the hidden agenda behind patients' words. The change in approach allows me to overcome previous experience of unnecessary confusion or fear.

By seeing so many psychiatric patients, where they wonder around and seem like so free, sometimes I did admire them in that sense, however reality check told me these sort of so called 'leisure" come with price - lost of "real freedom".

All the while being inflicted with negative happening more than positive kind, I came across my mind of giving up.

However by seeing some so called "insane" patients (no offense), I had came to a thought that I should be grateful for being sane and granted with real freedom: able to travel independently, not institutionized, can go shopping malls, etc.

Especially when I encounter a very "special" patient who really talkative, with lots of ideas, being self proud, excessive "euphoric" state, he himself had gave me inspiration that I have to move on, my life has not come to the end yet. In fact the inspiration I earned from him is as same as quoted by one great psychiatrist: "life is full of mess, just deal with it and move on".

I won't know what will happen in the future, so just see how it goes, and my life goes on.

Silence is golden

Silence and noise, another pair of opposing matters, after being discussed about dream versus reality, and followed by truth versus lie. Suddenly I had been in feeling of sharing my personal view upon silence and noise.

Sometimes is better to keep silent than to tell others what you feel because it hurts badly when you come to know that they can hear you but can not understand.

To find a real and sincere listener is as looking for precious gem, it was somewhere around us, but yet to be discovered. That is my perception about listener.

Being a listener, one has to listen, not just hear, listen by mean of being focus, concentrate on the person who speaks or voice out his / her words. By hearing itself, one could not understand the meaning(s) being portrayed by the one who speaks. Without understanding there is no point being a listener.

Therefore some people might just opt to be silent rather than looking for listener, because it disappoints more when one hears but can not understand.

Good listener will just listen all along the words from the one who speaks, and responds after understand the meaning(s) behind those words. However such good listeners are rarely seen, in reality not much of such good quality of listeners.