It had been a long time i didn't update my blogs.
Seriously the 1st half of this yr i was busy, initially with faculty chinese new year celebration as well as diabolo practice, while also facing numerous tedious exams in the latter half of 1st yr.
And now I m in 2nd yr now, being grateful for successfully passed my end of year 1 exam, even though my performance is not satisfying.
Similarly during the time from end of year exam preparation I face numerous dilemmas and kept bothering me. Seriously I regained my passion back during block 5 exam as well as someone's word that stimulates me. "We from Siew Bee gang must at least has a representative for it .....Quoted from someone among Siew Bee gang, May 2010"
Therefore I strive my best to fight for it,and the efforts were kept being added all the while.
And then a day before I went back to my hometown for end of year holiday, I was stunted with a shocking new.s....
Alright then I went back home and never forget to continue my efforts. Along the way I realised that the contents are not easy to understand (as I had yet to learn those which supposed to be covered in year 2) but I never give up on it.
On 7th of June new block in yr 2 starts, and the news (or consider rumour that time) was confirmed to be true. My dream gone.......seriously I was quite disappointed.
We live in a country with democracy but seriously do we really apply the principle in all matters?
Think urself, stones were just picked without being filtered or screened. who knows that there are other normal stones that just needed to be brushed up to turn into gems (or said as hidden talent).........but the collector doesn't care about it....just trust on his naked eyes.
And this made me myself felt down and upset.I realised that I never shine during my yr 1 but seriously I tried my best to push myself harder.
Actually the matter is the policy of selection.....
I will not regret if I was being thrown away as "ugly" stone if I do not turn into gem after being screened, but the thing is I was not even given a single chances.............thats turn myself down for long time, It reminded me of scenario of our well-known apex university that also reject my application without allowing me into interview, which causing a "trauma" to my life (something like u were sentenced to death without given a single chance to defend on court)
I wish the previous collector will be the one having the authority for selection, which I believe she will be fair enough to everyone of us, unlike the current collector.....unfortunately she had left my faculty, which I can foresee a heavy loss for future generation, including my batch as well.
Therefore I tried myself to put best effort ever during block 6 in yr 2 and just finished the exam, seriously again my performance never achieved my expectation. But things happen cannot be undone.........
But I will keep strong and will not fall down just because of this matter, even though I always recalled it and the pain was felt inside my heart......
I shall arise and work towards brushing myself as a shining stone one day and I believe I can. Since there is no more chance for my dream, I will just continue my studies.To be successfully pass all my exams and graduate in 5 yrs is my current aim now.
Even though I face the great challenge in yr 2 which is lacking of teaching staffs in one of the vital disciplines, I will consider this as my new challenge. Human grows by facing challenges and I believe I will gain more after I had gone through it successfully.
No one can predict what happen next but at least I can do something myself to ensure there is always a better tomorrow for me.
I will continue to practice my usual principle that is "Sharing is caring". I enjoy adopting to the principle. Indeed I felt happy to share with people, of course you can never expect some others in return, because most of the times I always ended up with disappointment..............
Probably thats how my medical life goes on......... which never come to my expectation.
But I m no longer the same as when I was in yr 1........and I believe I can make a difference to my future medical life.....................
With regards, Magnum
